Dear Coco –
Today our Drill Sergeant told us we need to find our motivation for being in the Army . . . What makes us tick and what we need to do when we ‘dig deep.’ I really couldn’t think of my motivation, why I wanted to be here. Why do I? I know it’s a question that you’ve asked me many times and I always had an answer but for once I realized that I had no reason other than to prove to myself I can do it. I just wanted the experience, just to do it. I suppose I just wanted to know what it was like. I want to experience everything I can. My motivation . . . ?
I really have no motivation except to experience the entire thing, to live the entire experience to the most I can. Maybe that’s not enough of a reason but that’s mine. That’s all I have.
I have to say I haven’t really gotten a nervous once yet, offended maybe, but only by the stupidity of humanity. To see the other people, kids, eating it all up and not realizing how brainwashed they are getting is amazing.
I’m glad I have a mind of my own and values instilled in me already.